Imagine, believe, achieve.

To hate is to protect my heart.

Perhaps I'm delusional to think such a negative emotion can bring any good. However, to get over love... I feel I must hate. Repeating to the air around me that I despise you. That everything you put me through ripped the love right out of my heart, and that for this, I cannot forgive you. I'll say it over and over, right up until the very moment I can make my heart believe it in the slightest. I'll ignore all the happy memories I made with you. I'll ignore all the beautiful emotions you helped me experience. I'll blur them and erase them as much as I have to so that the bad will burst through and remind me why you and I are no longer a team. I'll stop my heart from pounding at the mention of your name. And if I hear it, I'll scoff and claim that I don't miss you at all.

I don't believe myself yet... However, I know the day will come when all my hard work will pay off, and I'll begin to believe it. That day, the part of my heart that gleamed for you will be nothing but a void and the voice in my head that whispers your name to me will be forever silenced. When that day comes, there will be no turning back.

Messsubaglimingal.

I like chocolate ice cream. The taste, the way its cold melts on my tongue refreshing me and making my taste buds happy is simply wonderful. Chocolate ice cream has always been there. Though other flavors have come with samples of what their taste has to offer, interest in them was never as intense as the interest in the delicious cocoa flavored frozen treat.

But perhaps the only bad part of liking chocolate ice cream so much is what you experience when there is none in your freezer. Here I am, I haven't had chocolate ice cream in days and it's driving me ever so slightly insane. I miss it's flavor deeply. The company, and the way it soothes me. Yeah... FUCK I want some chocolate ice cream so shitting bad!!!

Swing and a miss. >_<

How rude of me to have strayed from the unbroken tradition of writing out your life story in your first blog post... I don't even see the point, to be honest, but I suppose it's for all the nosy people reading up who want to know more of you without really putting in the effort to get to know you personally.
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There are two distinct sides to my personality. And for lack of thinking of a cool way to say it due to a brainfart, I'll just put it like this: Simple and not simple.

The simple side of me enjoys things in life that others may just consider insignificant. Looking up at the stars, listening to music in the car as I watch the road go by, and sitting on a porch swing taking in a breezy afternoon. My ideal day is pizza, mountain dew and video games, or watching an interesting show on good channels (The Science Channel, History Channel, National Geographic Channel, etc.) Going out to do things most other people enjoy like clubbing doesn't interest me in the least. Luxurious outings mean nothing. It's all about just enjoying life in general with people you love. What you do doesn't matter. I mean, I've had more fun sitting on a couch with a person and just goofing off then going out to even Six Flags.

Since we briefly mentioned things I like to do, I guess now would be the ideal time for me to list the things I enjoy most. Video games would definately be at the top of the list. Honestly, what's better than completly immersing yourself in another world, and being a hero, if only for a few hours? Very few things, in my opinion. I enjoy dancing and singing also. But those two things are hobbies I do in the privacy of my own bedroom and that few people will ever see/hear me do. ;) I, to some degree, enjoy making signatures. Reading and writing are also on the list, though I am horribly rusty at the latter.

Most of all, though, I enjoy making people happy. If there is one thing in this world that makes me truly happy, it's knowing that through a kind action, or a few words, or even through just listening that I've made someone's day. I like to make sure my friends feel cared for and useful. Few people will admit it but it's amazing to just know that someone else out there is really thankful that you're around- that someone out there genuinley cares for your well being. Making others feel the above truley makes me glow.

Now for the not so simple side... Well... ...Uh... FUCK! Well, if it wasn't "not simple" it wouldn't be so damn hard to explain! >.<

Saturday is boring when you're home alone...

Okay, so maybe not literally alone, but quite close. My siblings are shut in their rooms, living in their own little world. I'm alone in the living room. Don't tell, but I wish they were down here watching tv, eating, something. Anything, really. I like having people around.

Today was dreadfully uneventful. Except for one thing- I GOT A LAPTOP!
Fucking finally! Give me a sec, I'm quite excited. ^____________________^

Alright, I'll contain my excitement to avoid further noob like typing. Anyway, we went into Best Buy thinking we were going to spend about 500$ and we ended up coming out with a 700$ laptop, a new mouse, and another little accesory my brother wanted. Well, I shouldn't really say we were going to spend 500$ initially, since I didn't pay for the computer. I didn't even chip in a buck's worth...
Did I mention how much I love my generous brother yet? :B

Other than me tinkering around on my new toy, I've done jack today. Actually, I may have tinkered around on it a little too much... Oy, I feel a headache coming on.