Perfect.

Kiss Me
It's so very strange
You have the taste of what's "wrong"

It must be that since one month ago
Everything between us has gotten mixed up

And now it's as if I've barely met you
You are fresh, and in the wind you become breeze
when you arrive

I will tell you when we can do.
Let's love each other in secret, baby
Let's be where no one else is
Let's make of our love, the most profound secret
Even if the whole world sings it, who cares?

How do you see it?
What happened between us
Even if I play it off
It does worry me

Because at the same time, seeing you smile
Your million dollar smile, always sets you apart
The pleasure of doing exactly what's "incorrect"
The smug happiness of opposing everyone else.

I'll tell you what we can do
Let's love each other in secret, baby
Let's be where no one else is
Let's make of our love, the most profound secret
Even if the whole world sings it, who cares?
They'll never be able to know
We'll be very careful what we do and in front of who
It's only a question of looking out
And talking as if nothing is going on

And I'll propose we escape.

-Miranda "Yo Te Dire"

Making a lover..

Right now, right at this very moment, I'm sure of it.

We had a "test," remember?  We said we'd take thing according to the results of that "test."  Don't you think we passed that test with flying colors?  Don't you think we far exceeded any expectations we had set upon ourselves?

I do.

I think the way my heart felt, was unlike any feeling before.  I imagine it must be the pinnacle of what perfect love feels like-- something I can't even imagine getting better.  Whether it be some kind of fate, or just a coincidence how two people truly perfect for one another found each other, I welcome it to continue with open arms, because I can't ever imagine myself being so stupid as to walk away from the perfection that you are.

You make me want to do what I've never wanted to do before.  You make me want to completely care for you.  You make me want to prop you up when you're down, and do anything in my power to put a smile on that beautiful face. You make me want to better myself, and make someone feel truly proud for the first time in my life.  And, you make me want to love better than I've ever loved before.

Isn't it funny, darling?  We said we wouldn't say forever.  That forever's too far away to have hopes for..  But the way you make my heart remain a step above elation, the way you keep a smile lighting up my face, and the way that you make me want to strive to do the same for you... forever, like this.. just as it is right now, is sounding pretty good after all.

Baby, baby, baby.

You are the sun.

You are everything that gives warmth.
You are everything that gives light.
You are everything that heals.
You are everything that's life.
You are everything that's passion.
You are everything that's reason for happiness.
You are everything that's cause for wonder.

You're the reason people smile. You're the cause of their enlightment.
You're why the earth still spins, and everything stays situated just where
it belongs. You are what people search for on a cloudy, stressful day- and
when your familiar hues fill their eyes, they know everything will be alright.

You are everything that's greater than everything else.
You are exceptional.

You must be the sun.

I. My. Me. Mine.

Whenever I feel that I have you closest, another thing seems
to ruin my spirits. Whenever I feel like I can reach you,
something else de-motivates me. When I feel like anything is possible,
when I set my mind to chase after you, another plague of pessimism races toward me
and flaunts the obstacles in my face. When I feel that desperation- the desperation
that screams to me that I'll never be happy unless I have you, I somehow brighten up.
I think: I'll have you. I'll have you, and in doing so, I'll be the happy person I've
always wanted to be but have never been able to achieve due to your abscence in my life.
I'll love you and cherish you, and I'll be thankful for you every single day.

And then... the high ends, and I'm confused once again.
Repeat cycle.

Imagine, believe, achieve.

To hate is to protect my heart.

Perhaps I'm delusional to think such a negative emotion can bring any good. However, to get over love... I feel I must hate. Repeating to the air around me that I despise you. That everything you put me through ripped the love right out of my heart, and that for this, I cannot forgive you. I'll say it over and over, right up until the very moment I can make my heart believe it in the slightest. I'll ignore all the happy memories I made with you. I'll ignore all the beautiful emotions you helped me experience. I'll blur them and erase them as much as I have to so that the bad will burst through and remind me why you and I are no longer a team. I'll stop my heart from pounding at the mention of your name. And if I hear it, I'll scoff and claim that I don't miss you at all.

I don't believe myself yet... However, I know the day will come when all my hard work will pay off, and I'll begin to believe it. That day, the part of my heart that gleamed for you will be nothing but a void and the voice in my head that whispers your name to me will be forever silenced. When that day comes, there will be no turning back.

Messsubaglimingal.

I like chocolate ice cream. The taste, the way its cold melts on my tongue refreshing me and making my taste buds happy is simply wonderful. Chocolate ice cream has always been there. Though other flavors have come with samples of what their taste has to offer, interest in them was never as intense as the interest in the delicious cocoa flavored frozen treat.

But perhaps the only bad part of liking chocolate ice cream so much is what you experience when there is none in your freezer. Here I am, I haven't had chocolate ice cream in days and it's driving me ever so slightly insane. I miss it's flavor deeply. The company, and the way it soothes me. Yeah... FUCK I want some chocolate ice cream so shitting bad!!!

Swing and a miss. >_<

How rude of me to have strayed from the unbroken tradition of writing out your life story in your first blog post... I don't even see the point, to be honest, but I suppose it's for all the nosy people reading up who want to know more of you without really putting in the effort to get to know you personally.
= w=

There are two distinct sides to my personality. And for lack of thinking of a cool way to say it due to a brainfart, I'll just put it like this: Simple and not simple.

The simple side of me enjoys things in life that others may just consider insignificant. Looking up at the stars, listening to music in the car as I watch the road go by, and sitting on a porch swing taking in a breezy afternoon. My ideal day is pizza, mountain dew and video games, or watching an interesting show on good channels (The Science Channel, History Channel, National Geographic Channel, etc.) Going out to do things most other people enjoy like clubbing doesn't interest me in the least. Luxurious outings mean nothing. It's all about just enjoying life in general with people you love. What you do doesn't matter. I mean, I've had more fun sitting on a couch with a person and just goofing off then going out to even Six Flags.

Since we briefly mentioned things I like to do, I guess now would be the ideal time for me to list the things I enjoy most. Video games would definately be at the top of the list. Honestly, what's better than completly immersing yourself in another world, and being a hero, if only for a few hours? Very few things, in my opinion. I enjoy dancing and singing also. But those two things are hobbies I do in the privacy of my own bedroom and that few people will ever see/hear me do. ;) I, to some degree, enjoy making signatures. Reading and writing are also on the list, though I am horribly rusty at the latter.

Most of all, though, I enjoy making people happy. If there is one thing in this world that makes me truly happy, it's knowing that through a kind action, or a few words, or even through just listening that I've made someone's day. I like to make sure my friends feel cared for and useful. Few people will admit it but it's amazing to just know that someone else out there is really thankful that you're around- that someone out there genuinley cares for your well being. Making others feel the above truley makes me glow.

Now for the not so simple side... Well... ...Uh... FUCK! Well, if it wasn't "not simple" it wouldn't be so damn hard to explain! >.<